Futility

sometimes I feel like life is futile

I've said it before and I'll say it again
the only joy I have in my life is riding
to ride is to follow my bliss...

I have no kids
I have no partner or relationship
my job sux more and more every day
I'm tired of being broke
and not having means to do anything but subsist

and now my shoulder is requiring that I not ride

what the fuck am I supposed to do with that?

it's futile