Monday, October 30, 2006

All Hallow's Eve deux

I have a friend
who carves pumpkins
and sells them
at this time of year
this is her busiest week
of the year!











































All Hallow's Eve









































































































Saturday, October 21, 2006

How WyzWmn got Wize?

I'm often asked
how I got to be
WyzWmn©

"WyzWmn" - sic WiseWoman

"Brief moments of lucidity liberally inter-dispersed with abject stupidity!"

I'm a story teller and apparently people think it makes me wise - I vote for mouthy :o)

I got my nic close to..

*ahem*
35 yrs ago
when all my friends
were younger than I
and they felt that
I was the older
more mature person
and cos my dad was a cop
and I knew all the tricks
to keep us from getting busted

it just sorta snowballed from there...

being of the motorcycling persuasion
people have always felt a need to tack nicknames on me
for many years in my youth
I was also known as "PMS365"
cos
apparently I was cranky
so much so that my neice and nephew
still call me "Aunty Kranky"
(but it's ok cos they call my sister "Aunty Krazy"

and the VOD
is known as "Gramma Candy"

my brother is known as "the Golden Boy"
and my Dad is "Digger" cos his father was a funeral director )

so apparently I come from a nickname heavy family


and I do sooo love to tell a story now don't I?

Monday, October 16, 2006

Mazzy Star

~Into Dust~
Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
A round broken in two
'til your eyes shed into dust
Like two strangers turning into dust
'til my hand shook the way of fear
I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under...your fate
It was you
breathless and tall
I could feel my eyes turning into dust
And two strangers turning into dust
Turning into dust.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Old Friend

I have a 17 year old toy poodle
his name is Half a Cup o Cocoa
and he's been with me through
thick and thin
(that's a thick waist and thin options)
thru everything for 17 years

I got up early today to take him to the groomer
he needs a haircut bad
and he won't let me cut it

over the last year or so
every time I take him
she and I have a talk about how
she should respond should he stroke out
on the table
or in the bathtub

my answer is always a terse
"let him go"
I don't want him to suffer
but I sure don't want him gone

funny thing
I'd always had big dogs
rottweillers and doberman pincers
and shepherds and huskies

when I got sick enough
that I wasn't going out of the house
for days on end
my mother and brother
brought me this little brown bundle
about the size of a cup

and I was immediatley in love
here I am 17 years later
thinking about him no longer being here
it isn't pretty

I have some great stories about his antics over the years
but the best tribute I can give him
is that he is my longest standing relationship

and again
tho I don't want him to be in pain
I really don't think I'm ready for him to be gone

Friday, October 13, 2006

Lucky Friday...

was it lucky?
I don't know yet

my fellow Pagans believe
it to be a powerful day
and bikers have been blessed
with a Friday the 13th
party of monumental scale
in this country
for years....

so...

I had a job interview today
it was kinda hard
since I lost the resume
I'd been tooling for years

ya know what my problem is?

I think it's that I have a real discomfort
asking people to be my reference/for help

it's kinda like I think
that my work stands for itself
so I shouldn't have to ask
or tell them
people should just know

how arrogant is that eh?

or maybe I have a secret fear
that no one will say anything nice
so I'm scared to ask

I R an idiot sometimes

I've often been told that whenever
I'm asked that 'awful' question
"what do you feel is your worst attribute?"
I should answer,
"my tendency to undersell myself"
but that freaks me out too!

so I had the interview at 9 this morning
it was for an up and coming industrial company
that has grown so fast
they can't even keep up with the pencils
let alone the computers and offices

I think the interview went well
these 2 women spent all their time
trying to scare me outta taking the job
but I don't scare so easy

they''re big problem is
that as much as they need someone like me
to "jack of all administrative trades" them...

they don't wanna pay for someone like me

I told them I wasn't leaving where I am
for less than $$.00 an hour and full benefits
and that I wanted a 3 mth review
with the possibility of 10 to 13% raise at that point

cos by then they'd know
just how indispensable I am :o)

but I am well aware
of the wage disparity on this Island
I am oooh so familiar with the
concept that they pay us less here
for the profound pleasure of
living in Canada's Garden of Eden...
altho who's idea that was I'll never know
I'd surely make 25.00 to 45.00 an hour
across the country
for the same level of management

while I hate having to lay it out like that...
it's been made painfully obvious to me
that I'm never gonna make more money
at "the company who shall remain nameless"
and I've been there 3 freakin years!!
(under a normal circumstance
a girl likes to be kissed
when that's happening!)

besides I would sincerely like
to make more money than I am now
I don't need to make a million

So - is Friday the 13th to be my lucky day?
but a couple more bucks wouldn't suck

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Sentimental Journey

I've lived in BC almost 10 years now - all of that on the Island...and I love it - but at this time of year I miss ON, I miss the fall season's changing colors, and the sunrise over the Sleeping Giant on Lake Superior...a friend sent me these pix from the park on the hill behind the house I used to own in Thunder Bay... they likely won't be in the right order - but you'll understand...(we used to call those pix of the light thru the clouds "God Talking" in the North Superior...)










Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Hide and Seek

"Hide And Seek"
~Imogene Heap~
Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to form,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.
Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.
Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
(Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,They were here first.Mmm, what you say?Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best?
Ah of course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need?
And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I dont believe you.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

A Thanksgiving moment -


I'm having a Thanksgiving moment...

my family is doing Thanksgiving today
as I have to work tomorrow
nice of them...but
(there's always a but eh?)

I am truly happy that my mother (aka the Voice of Doom)
has made it thru the full year since she found out she had health issues
intact
but I swear to god
if I don't get some bloody separation from this woman
I may kill her myself!

we are to attend my cousin's house at 1 pm for family festivities
it takes her a minimum of 2 hours
to get her little old lady on
so why the hell is she actin like she's nothing to do today?
cos my brother
the golden boy
and his children will be here sometime today
so
she's all in a fuckin flutter
making sure that her house is perfect
cos he's coming
and he ain't even gonna stay at her house
they are stayin at the cousin's
cos there's more room

WTF?
I ask her when we will be leaving
and she says "we'll play it by ear"
which means
everyone else will be there at 1
and we'll roll in some time around 4
and in the interim I should be ready willing and able to leave at a moments notice
in case she changes her fucking mind

and then I'll have the profound pleasure
of watching them all get drunk as sot's
before pouring her into the car
to bring her home

WTF?
there are times when this business of being the eldest
carries some huge suckage.

Happy Fucking Thanksgiving

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Where does your Power come from?

I know
without any question
that I am a lunar child

all my life has revolved around
the ebb and tide
of the moon

I've paid attention...

I've made better deals on the full moon
I've lost loves with the waning moon
I am more of me on the full moon
I am less of me - insecure on the waning moon
PMS? new moon
hot flashes? waning moon

again I ask...
(in hopes that you are now paying attention)
where does your Power come from?

when are you most aware of your surroundings?
when do you feel most comfortable?
how do you deal with stressors?
when do you feel more yourself than any other time?

and transversely
when do you not?

so...
now...
tell me...
Where does your Power come from?

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Harvest Moon and the Month of Samhain

I always get a kick
outta people who
go thru a big
rambling
pumped up
build up

ballywhooooo
to get to
Halloween

I get the same kick outta
Christians

that call it ...

"All Hallow's Eve"
or
"Saween"

like they are "in the know"

....like they possibly have a clue
what it's about....

do I bugger with
their high holy days?

not so much...

then bloody well leave my Sabbats alone!

Harvest Moon on Sat Oct 7th
followed by
Samhain

do you know where
your power comes from?


Monday, October 02, 2006

well crap...

I took the last of the antibiotics
for pneumonia on Sat

Today I feel like I'm catching a cold

it hardly seems fair now
do it?

this pic is sunet at Deep Cove
on Vancouver Island
in British Columbia
the furthest west in Canada

so - the sun is saying
Goodbye to Canada till tomorrow...

Sunday, October 01, 2006

A New E-zine I've found

also for those following the Wize