Shhhhhhhhhhh

it's a secret....

Satan is living
inside my boss

and I think he's trying
to bust out!

today the woman
gives me a freakin 40 minute speach
all about how she's figured out
that I'm "hiding" behind my weight
and that I should let the real me out

I damn near slapped her
I was able to stop myself

but she keep on needling me
until I snapped

so....
I told her that she continues
to talk to me
like I'm stupid
er something

and I'm not
I know full well why I'm overweight
besides the over riding health issues

the very fact that
my whole identity was tied up
in my "beauty" for the first 3/4ths of my life
and that fact
coupled with the fact that I was
raped and sodomized for years
on account of - or as a result of
that "beauty"
was a deciding factor
in my weight gain

the "expectations" that evolved
in the people around me
due to my "beauty"
made me insane...
....literally

so I got fat
and bald
and those expectations
went away

and I turned and walked away
to a stunned silence

betcha she thinks twice
about needling me
about personal stuff
again....