and so it goes

more on the health front

the Diabetes is type 2 and confirmed
the drug (metformin) is in
contraindication with Crohn's Disease

the side effects are all the kind of issues
that I've fought tooth and nail to
get rid of since being diagnosed with Crohn's Disease
all those years ago
(nausea, diarrhea, intestinal bleeding,
sore joints, issues with tendons,
being tired all the time etc)

now they tell me that "maybe"
part of the eye issues
could be the Diabetes
part of the legs and feet issues
could be the Diabetes
part of the gut issues
could be the Diabetes

get the picture?

oh...it gets better

so besides the drugs being harsh
and "hating" each other
the diets for both diseases
are contra indicative
what I need to eat for the Diabetes
I can't eat for the Crohn's Disease
and what I need for the Crohn's Disease
I can't eat with Diabetes

fuck.me.gently.

I'm trying really hard to not let this
become a focus for depression
but I'm as frustrated as hell
at the moment!

I have another round of Dr
and specialist
appointments coming up
along with yet more trips to a dietitian
and the Diabetes Clinic

How the hell am I supposed
to hold down a full time job
with all this?

it just never seems to end

course the good news is that I'll
likely start to loose weight
from all the puking
jayzuz!

and truly

I feel really good for someone
that's as sick as I am!