Friday, November 13, 2009

ok...I'm pissed again

wtf is wrong with people?

I have been reading a blogger for a year er two
over at Boobs, Injuries and Dr. Pepper

I read her cos she's witty
she's enthusiastic
she's funny
and has a love for life
and for her family...

in good times and bad.

I read her cos she's got a good heart
and a hard head
and like me
she comes from the school of hard knocks

while I read her
so do thousands of others
and as a result
she's become slightly famous
in the blogsphere

and in becoming slightly famous
she's also become the envy
of a lot of people
that have a desperation
to be seen in the spotlight
but not the tools
to do so

well over a year ago
she suffered a break down of sorts
and ended up in the hospital
and part of her process for healing
was to vent on line

she bled
she wept
she raved
and she confessed
she called herself names
she compared herself to every evil
and base instinct known to mankind
in an effort to purge it all
and somehow find happiness again

her readership soared
people lavished her with praise
and support
they raved
and rallied behind her when the odd person
would comment in a negative fashion

every time she said that she was going
to stop writing
people begged her to continue to write
likely because her writing
made them feel better about themselves

Over the past little while
the tides have turned
and the next flavor of the month
has become a genre of bloggers
who make their fame
out of smacking down
or putting down
or ridiculing the subject matter
of people like Cyrstal
at Boobs, Injuries and Dr. Pepper

they're like pack animals
and take down the old,
the infirm
or the people they are just plain jealous of
some people just jump on a band wagon when they see one
not because they know what's going on
but because being judgmental
makes them feel better
about their own inefficacious little lives....

they are hard, bitter, miserly,
narcissistic and sanctimonious
(and to coin a phrase) they are Christians of convenience

They begged her for more
and then hold her up for examination
and ridicule
if she doesn't meet their pious viewpoint...

Crystal, you and the Mr need only answer to yourselves,
your family and
whatever the hell it is that you call god

all the rest is window dressing
and truly has no bearing
on who and what you are...
only you can effect change upon yourself...

they all deserve each other...
and the rest of us will continue to read you
when we need/want to

cos truly....
with the good -
comes the bad...
that's called friendship
and speaks volumes
to the differences between
friends and acquaintances.

take heart dear woman....
for every one of them that's flapping their lips
there is one of us that knows the true perils of real life...
and don't hold you accountable for our glass houses.

3 comments:

Ann said...

I went to her blog today and it seems to be gone.(?!)
I'm so sad that such a talented and brave writer has been beaten down by a bunch of idiots with nothing better to do with their time than to try to tear other people down. I hope and pray that Crystal is alright and that we hear from her again soon.

WyzWmn© said...

I hope so too Ann - but only time will tell eh?

Crystal said...

I'm so sorry I didn't see this last fall, but I really needed it today, as well. Thank you so much. I'm not going anywhere ... I'm just slowly feeling my way back in.

thank you again. Love you.