there but for the grace....

ya know
every once in a while
ya get so caught up
in the ups and downs of yer own life
that you forget that other people have lives too

I've been kinda pouty about not being healthy enough
to go out and get a real job
cos I want to make enough money to get my ride fixed up
safely and aesthetically

and I want a travel trailer
so I don't have to sleep on the ground no more
but I need to stay where I am cos of the health benefits
and how where I am is ok
but I ain't gettin rich
waaa waaa waaa

last week after a particularly despicable day
I was talking with a friend
ostensibly to whine
however
she looks shell shocked
she tells me that she's just had an employee in her office
the woman needs to take some time off
this poor woman lost a child in a car accident a little over a year ago
then she got pregnant with twins
and lost them a month or so ago
as a result her husband (whom shall now and forever be known as "the asshole")
left her cos he believes she "killed" his kids
and now her mother - who is her sole support network
has been diagnosed with a terminal brain tumor

shit eh?
life just ain't fair

a woman I work with has been going to doctor's for months
to find out why she's been getting these unrelenting headaches
she's had 3 MRI's that have all come back clean
but she keeps going back cos the pain in her head
makes her want to blow her own head off...

she goes to a specialist on Friday
and he says that she has a tumor in her head
big enough to require an operation
and it's benign but hey
it's brain surgery

shit eh?
life just ain't fair

I know this lady
I've known her about a year and a half
she's rubbed me the wrong way once er twice
she frenetic...and needs to be the center of attention
I find out today that it's residual effects of life changing trauma

shit eh?
life just ain't fair

so I have alopeacia
and I have crohn's disease
and I have a hiatus hernia
and I have bronchitis
and I have inflammatory arthritis
etc etc etc

but shit eh?
I know life just ain't fair
cos there but for the grace of the gods go I...