I had dinner with a friend

this evening
and she asked me
a very interesting question

she said...
"Honey? wtf is wrong with you?
every time you go away
you forget one of your meds!
Do You Have A Death Wish
er somethin?"

LoL

I was kinda puzzled
by that myself
when I left last week
I was sure I had everything
I needed
I got to my friend's house
for the first night
and low and behold...
no Crohn's meds...











so I went away
on a 5 day holiday
without my gut's medication...

brave er stupid eh?

tonight
I got full on proof
that contrary to popular belief
I am not off my freakin nut!

I just went over to the VOD's
to take her the paper
she says to me..
"oh ya...I have this"
and hands me my full bottle
of Crohn's pills
(I take 16
of the not so little buggers
a day
on maintenance)

I go...
"wtf...how did you end up with that?
I thought I'd lost it
cos I picked up all my Rx's on Wed
packed and left on Thurs
and got to my friends house
and they weren't in the bag...
all the other stuff was....
but not the gut pills!"

she says...

"well
I went to your house on Wed night
while you were out
to get a toothpick
and I guess I (unconsciously)
picked them up
and brought them home
by mistake...
and I just remembered
that I had them...
so here"

see?
it's not me
I am not quite officially off my nut yet!

In the Heights...

I watched a PBS program tonight called
"Great Performances"
it was about the Broadway musical play titled
"In the Heights - Chasing Broadway Dreams"

it's the wonderful story of a fellow
who dared to dream
and wrote a play
with himself as one of the leads
and writing most of the songs...

seven years later
with a team of virtually unknown
actors, singers, dancers and performers
set designers, choreographers and investors
they mounted the show off Broadway
which lead to
eventually opening on Broadway
in spring 2008

and going on to win five Tony Awards
including Best New Musical

it's a story about Washington Heights
a barrio suburb of Manhattan in New York City
where there are a huge number of mixed racial
2ND generation "in between" kids grew up

people not Latino enough for the Latins
Asian enough for the Asians
or black enough for the blacks
all those kids that grew up
being punished and feeling lost
for decisions made by their parents
prior to their entry into the world
and the repercussions of their parents
reaching or not reaching their dreams....

it moved me
because it made me wonder....

what happened to dreams?

what happened to people daring to
reach for the stars?

how did our lives get to the point
where the mundane of our day to day living
outshines
the brightness of our dreams?

how did so many people's big dream
become
easy money?
win the lotto?
houses with 8 bathrooms?
and tubs the size of a living room?
why is it that we seem to need
so much more to make us happy
than reaching our childhood dreams?

and really....
when did we stop working
to make our dreams a reality?
was it conscious?
or has it just slipped away
due to a general apathy?

there's a great audio/video line
at the very beginning and end
of the movie "Pretty Lady"
it comes from a Rastafarian roller skater
"What's Your Dream?"



so here's what I want to know....

what's your secret dream?
what's the one thing you've dreamt about
since you were a child
and why the hell ain't you goin for it?

I had forgotten...

I truly had forgotten
what it was like
to spend some time
without the games

to spend time with people
you trust to not lie to you
or play games with you
or go behind your back
or exclude you ...
just because you don't agree
with them

I've just had 5 fabulous days
of no anxiety
no stress
no personal agendas
no bullshit
and huge amounts of laughter

I saw old friends
renewed acquaintances
watched new and giddy love...
(you know who you are...LoL)
received sage advice
and overall realized the importance
of spending my time
doing what I need to do
for me...as opposed to trying
to do for the majority
and to damn the double speak

5 full days without having to watch my back
to see who's knife was gonna get lodged there

what more can a girl ask for?

so many toys

so little money
*sigh*

apparently I did not win 49 million last night
boo

I'm working on a wish list for when I get my car paid off
LoL

it's cuz I'm a greedy bitch...ya know?

• digital SLR camera
• a net book - can't decide which one quite yet but I want one for traveling
• Amazon Kindle for ebooks
• an iPhone or iTouch...again...won't decided till the time I purchase
• a mc tent trailer...I lean towards the TourMaster...but time will tell
• somewhere else to live - where it's quiet, and I can do laundry and time of the day or night
• a different job
  

I hear that you gotta put it out there...or it won't happen
so this is me putting it out there....

LoL

Away for the Long Weekend

WyzWmn has left the building!

Combining both sides...

of my spirit

I've found a group of pagans that ride

















I'm reservedly hopeful

Have a look at their website www.ancientriders.org
I've been exploring and find that the principles
are not just acceptable to me
they are positively uplifting....

stay tuned!

Mother's Day

this is the first year
in the 35 years
since I gave my daughter
up for adoption
that I seem to be having
a problem around
this "Hallmark holiday"
(thanks Bear)
aka
Mother's Day

could be that it's cos
Mercury is in retrograde
could be the recent upheaval
in my life
could be the knowledge
of her that I have this year
knowledge that
I'd never had before

I don't know...
I just know that I'm sad

I found an absolutely moving
story on one of the blogs
that I regularly read
about his mother
and I thought
instead of trying
to examine my feelings more
I'd let ya'll examine
his....

The Ambulance Driver's
Homage to his Mother

Good times

so yesterday I had to leave early
to pick the VOD up at the local hosp
where she was having tests done

apparently she can get herself there
but not home
*sigh*

so anyway
I pull up in the little driveway
but the front door of our wee community hosp
and there's 3 parking spots for picking people up
the middle one is empty
so I pull ahead to back in
and before I can back in
some guy pulls into the spot
from behind me

I mutter
and drive across the road and park there
I walk into the front lobby
and the VOD is sitting there
all ready to go
so I suggest
I'll take a quick trip to the facilities
and we'll head home

picture a small lobby
with a few chairs
all of which are occupied
and across the other side is the
unisex washroom
I go in
lock the door
drop my strides
and start my business

about mid stream
there comes this racket
at the door
someone trying to get in

I think to myself
"good thing I locked the door"
the racket gets louder
and louder again
and all of a sudden
the door bursts open
and in strides
the same fellow
that copped my parking space
he stands in the doorway
with the door wide open
showing me
and my seated glory to every
seated in the lobby

I bark "hello - it's occupied"
and pray I don't have to jump up

he mutters and backs out
I finish my business
and wash my hands
thinking: "well at least I know
I'm still not too old to blush
when caught with my pants
down around my ankles"

I come out of the restroom
and the same fellow
is standing outside the door
and he starts to yell at me
"you yelled at me - and it scared me!"

to which I yelled back
"ya...well you scared me, the door was locked
and I had my pants down pissing!!"

the VOD beetles out the door ahead of me....

what is it about me
and washrooms?

I don't get it

Quote of the day

90 people get the Swine Flu and everybody wants to wear a mask. A million people have AIDS and no one wants to wear a condom.

Me Either....

Castrato - Libera

in the 1700's there was a practice of castrating young men in hopes of preserving the beauty of their voices into their adulthood

I've never understood how people could do something so vile

today, from my kitchen, I heard the voice of angels on my television

I'm not much of a believer in the faith of Christians...but in my minds eye
this is what the term "Chorus of Angels" must be....and for the first time I understood the yearning to keep that sound available forever...

unbelievably beautiful voices...

the group is called "Libera"
they are a group of some 40 odd boys from various backgrounds in England...they've been rotating voices in and out of the chorale since 1984 - and this clip simply doesn't do them justice....

the Perception Personality Image Test...?

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPC - The Daydreamer

Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

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