Shocked and appalled

Once again
my club has reached
an all time low

today was our Memorial Ride to Fallen Riders everywhere
and specifically to honor 2 members
that we lost last year and the year before

the event was planned several months ago
to stage for all the local chapters to meet
and then ride into town
and go to a members home for a BBQ
with the widows
of the 2 members we've lost

specifically to show them respect and to honor the memory
of fallen riders everywhere

a couple of months ago 2 of the higher echelon
of this club tried to start a movement
to cancel this event
stating unequivocally that the widows wanted no part of it

funnily enough
both widows told me today
that at no time had they ever spoken
to either person in question
about cancelling.....

and again.....
as a result of the petty bickering
and self indulgent childish vengeful actions
of members and leaders of said club
and their lack of ability to put aside differences
and act like adults
for the good of the "all"
about half the attendees pulled out of the ride
did not attend the BBQ with the widows

they went into the town
went into town for Chinese food
instead...

this would be the same group of people
that toss the word "respect" around
like it's a brick
These would be the same people
that have questioned the integrity of someone
for pulling out of an event because he didn't
think he could hold his temper
These would be the same people that
spoke derisively of the people that couldn't
or chose not to go to their event...

there were members from all over that couldn't attend
for whatever reason
and that is understood
I get that

What I don't get
is the slap in the face
to the widows of our fallen members
What I don't get
is the complete and utter insult shown
the people that hosted the BBQ
they opened their home to people
they thought were their friends
and in return
got shit on.....

there's truly no mistaking the statement
made today

Right now
I am embarrassed to say
that I am a member of the same club

I am ashamed of them.