Safe haven?

there is no place
that is to be a safe haven

there is no where
to muss out loud
to put things in order in my head
without getting into trouble

I have been given express orders
to not speak about issues that move me greatly
some that break my heart
and some that just piss me off in general

and I don't know
in all good conscience
that I will keep it to myself
that I even should
keep it to myself

is it better to spill the beans
and live within my personal integrity?
or is it better to follow the fucking lemmings
and take orders from a psycho?

and why oh why is it just impossible
for some animals to leave well enough alone?